Well hello all you beautiful people! I see that I have 5 awesome people following me. That makes my heart smile. Thank you for wanting to listen to me. :) So sorry I havent posted on here for a while. Its been a crazy couple of months. So here goes....
Lets start by saying....I HAVE MOVED!!! Yeehaw! I cant even describe to you how happy I am to get out of that town. Im so glad not to be around all of that drama and eviliness. It still follows me but of course I will get into that later. (Yep I got some drama for you) I can not wait until Leyton starts preschool next year and when he plays sports. I love Covington. Its such a great place to raise a child. Im so ready for our life to start and to see what the future has in store for us. The past couple of months have been pretty hard but I see a light at the end of the tunnel...hopefully! :)
I guess I should say first that I lost my job and this is one of the reasons why I got the chance to move. Honestly, I think this might have been a blessing. I truly think God heard my cries and pleas and blessed me with the chance to move with the expense of my job. Which was ok by me. Dont get me wrong I really need a job but that place kind of got old after awhile. I really really miss my Linda. She was what got me through my days and someone I could talk too. I mean what kind of boss fires you because you want to go to school. I mean... serioulsy?! That would get denied, but it really is true. My workplace was fine until he found out that I wanted to go back to school. O well whatever..Its water under the bridge.
So after that, everything seemed to come into place. My grandparents have done SO much for me in the past couple of months. They helped me find my new place and they helped me move of course with the help of my brothers. They are like oxens. They were really there when I needed them and what more could a sister ask for. I love them!! Now im living in a bigger home and Leyton loves it. He has more room to play and go for walks. I love that he can finally play outside with out worrying if people are spying on me and running back to you know who and telling them my every move.
Which brings me to my baby daddy drama...You know you have been ready for this. You cant fool me! :)
Well....About a month before I left, I got a phone call from "The Devil" saying that he needed to talk to me. I found out that my "really good friend" and him were having an affair. O yeah! This has been going on for about a year. Might I add...BEFORE my divorce. Everything that I had ever told her in confindence was told to him. I trusted this girl with EVERYTHING, thinking that she was my "friend". I felt like a fool!! I was like "Do you want to pull the knife out of my back or should I?" You know, I dont think like that. Sometimes I think that nothing and nobody could hurt me. I like my fairy tales and prince charmings. I guess you could say my bubble got popped. You know like "Wizard of Oz" where Glenda the good witch come floating down in the pretty pink bubble. Then in a twist, you see Dorothy standing there on the yellow brick road and as soon as Glenda's almost there she pulls out a saftey pin and pops that bubble and Glenda falls flat on her face. Yep..Im Glenda with a broken nose and messed up tiarra. LOL! Anyways... I truly thought this was a joke and couldnt quit laughing. Until I talked to her husband and said this was for real. In the meantime, I had of course quit talking to her and wanted nothing to do with all of them, even when they were parading around town with my son and pretending to be one happy family. GIVE ME A BREAK!!! My knife wound is slowly starting to heal and I have forgiven her for what she has done to me. I wouldn't be living like God would want me too if I didnt. Bitterness would only eat at me. But believe me...I DONT FORGET!!
My Facebook, Email, and other accounts have been hacked into, including this one. Today, when I tried to get into my blog account my password had been changed. Surprise Surprise! I went to answer my security question AND this is what my question asked me. "Whos D*** do you want?" O yeah! Thats just one of things I have to deal with. I actually started laughing because I mean really thats all you got. For someone who wants nothing to do with me or wants to call me names all the time he seems to be worried about what I am doing. He even took my picture the other day when I picked my kid up. I mean really...Who does that?? I know I would take my picture too because im famous and all but grow up. Heres what I think, He is either A) going to make some kind of awful picture and post all of the internet or B) his married girlfriend wanted to see what I looked like so he took my picutre or C) he must miss me and want to see my beautiful smiling face. Too bad it was a scowl and I had my sunglasses on haha!! Im going to say B because thats how they function. Yes, I still look the same. Yes I am still overweight and still short. Nothing has changed. I hope you feel better about yourself.
Heres a little tidbit for some of you who very well maybe going through some horrible things yourself. ALWAYS LAUGH! In the end no matter how bad it is you just have to laugh. Dont get me wrong I have cried... A LOT! But in between there I have found the funny in it all. I have been called Fat, Fatty, F***ing C***, B****, Sunday Christian and the newest one as of Sunday was Porky B****. Names hurt but rememeber Sticks and Stones! There are plenty of names and horrible things that I could say but as soon as im called something I just laugh. In the end these kind of people are miserable and awful kinds of people. They live in jealousy and evilness and I dont want me or my child around it. Just take it as a compliment because truly you are the one making their life a living hell. Do want to waste your time worrying about what they are doing or trying to hack or pretend to be other people just get into Facebook or email accounts? Heck No! You have better things to do.
Pray for your enemies...Cause the the good Lord knows I need pray for mine. :) So, like I have been doing, I have been praying and hoping one of these days he will grow up and realize what a wonderful child he has and that im not his enemy. Im still holding out that one of these days some one will come along and care for me like I should be cared for. Protect me from his cruelty and love me and my son like we should have been loved in the first place.
Well until next time. Im sure I will have another good story for you soon. Good luck in your lives and always remember that God is the answer to everything. When in doubt pray!
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
